fear

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That type of fear has definitely faded in me over the years. I big part of that may be that I've been a scuba instructor and a professional boat captain - both occupations that place a high premium on being level-headed. I've had it drilled into me that safety is always best served by cool analysis of a situation and calm, effective action informed by that analysis. I tend to push reactionary fear down as a result. I'm sure age has a bit to do with it too.

I think the kind of fear you're talking about is different.  It seems to me that the fears you're talking about would be the occupational hazards of the job that you have been trained to avoid and trained to deal with if they do arise.

My fear has more in common with strider's situation, being alone in a spooky atmosphere, where there's usually no actual reasonable thing to be afraid of. 

One of my worst thoughts is what if I just saw some old haggered looking woman stood out there in the rain, or I just heard a child's voice saying "Help me Paul".

If there was an actual person there breaking in and I discovered the criminal I'd probably be actually relieved beyond belief that it is just an criminal and not the ghost of an old woman or some other weird being.

This is what makes it so odd is that in the daytime I have no belief at all in ghosts and demonic beings, but I think I've just watched too many horror films basically.

you know what?  In the darkest, bleakest, most depressing, or creepy situations, I think of this song,
and I find it impossible not to think of sunny, clear blue skies and white sand beaches, lol: