Letting you in.

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I actually have a mild form of social anxiety. I am fine around people for a short time. However, being around them too much brings about attacks that employers never understand. When I am undergoing an attack, I have absolutely no control over what I say or do. Literally. It is a bad condition to have for one who works in the retail business, but I honestly have no idea what else I could do. Today, it seems all one can do is retail.

I love where I work right now, and I do a great job at what I do. However, I can already see that my condition is not good for those with whom I work.

My supervisor whispered to me the other day that I cannot keep having these episodes, but it seems she does not understand that the episodes are not something I can control. It worries me. I want to be normal, but social anxiety is clearly not something that one can control just because someone else wills it.