RE: I lost my heart today.
November 20, 2015 at 10:50 am
(This post was last modified: November 20, 2015 at 10:51 am by Faith No More.)
(November 20, 2015 at 9:53 am)Nestor Wrote: Thank you for the kind thoughts everyone. It's much appreciated, and I thank you letting me unburden this raw emotion on you here. I awoke this morning, just feeling numb, trying to understand where life goes from here for me. It is one of those horrible moments in which you know that for the rest of your life you will always view it as "before" and "after" that day. One thing I know for sure, is that I will take the lesson Trevor - that was his actual name - taught me and everyone else who had the privilege of knowing him: he reminded me every day to count my blessings, and to take nothing for granted. I've always known that life is short. He also showed me how very hard it is, not just as something I could grasp intellectually but something I watched him endure and struggle with every day. Most importantly, he taught me that life is also largely what you make it. Despite his limitations, he was one of the most cheerful, optimistic, sweet, thoughtful persons I have known.
I just can't even imagine what his parents are feeling right now.
I lost my best friend, too, and he was 23 when he died. He was the most amazing person I'd ever met, so I know what you're feeling right now. One thing that helped me through it was reminding myself that even though I felt tremendous pain from losing him, enduring that pain was worth it to have known him in life. I think the hardest part about it, though, was watching the world go on as normal. My whole world had stopped, and the world moved on as if his death didn't even register. I'm sorry you have to experience all of this.
It know it's a trite cliche, but it really does get better with time. You just need to let yourself grieve, and don't bottle up what's inside. If you need someone to lend a friendly ear, I'm always open for a PM.
