Atheism

[drfuzzy]

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I've only posted 1 or 2 genuine posts to this forum. The rest were attempts. But nevertheless if you claim the vape post was partially human I have some hope. I'm not a troll or poe I'm just very VERY serious. Every word I type. Usually I am not taken seriously at all. I guess I'm trying to be honest. I try to watch a movie or two every now and then. I have one good friend, and a bunch of other friends I know from facebook. I pretty much just vape all day every day.... and waste my days.... thinking about more poe thoughts you'd call them probably related to my childhood I just reiterated. You're pretty clever drfuzzy. Sorry for relating the dr to the hanky lol. Anyway I tend to do things every once in a while that resemble a normal human. Like I said I'm comming to I think lucky for me. I like to go out and play at the beach, we went to see star wars 7 the other day, I spent the night at a girls house and almost got laid to boot, and ALMOST got me a girlfriend before she ... yeah... she removed her facebook account from facebook, I think. But she's gone.

I like to be seen for being who I am. It's just about the only thing I do. I failed to attain "perfect val" around the age of 30 which is how old I am. So I am really very depressed about that. But I generally hold that I succeeded. And I'm a very pissed off person thinking that a crook got to God's good side becuz I think 5 y/o val pics /jacob ladder pics don't work. Like they are just not old enough. I tried my best to modle after my val and put everything that was there into it, and I sincerely believe it's for some particular reason, maybe it is just my imiganation though. Yeah I do stuff like a normal person. And I'm not that belittled by other people. I have had extreme fears of others though for a long time but I tend to handle people pretty well. It isn't like I'm abnormal or anything, I just ... my friend says it's because I'm extremely shy, and he thinks I'm normal. I really AM normal and VERY normal infact when it comes to being examined for who I really am. All of these things are really very very irritating but I'm slowly coming to I hope in my old age.

I work with my father every day in the back yard and he and I have started to get along. I work only about 8-20 hours a week though making 10$ an hour, pretty good pay, and I'm doing good at it, put on a mask recently and attained a seemingly perfectly normal person guise, which is something normal for me. I'm really a very normal person though, with very little research into some of the things my better school mates managed to do, but I got off instead developing myself into the world of philosophy from my child ages. I've been into philosophy very majorly since I was a very , VERY small kid. Probably 6 to be honest. I've worked all my life long though as a young teen and was very normal just quite shy. Hurts to say that and really is embarassing to reveal so much about me. But I'm really kind of like a person who likes to be alone, I don't like much I'm trying to be honest with you. I don't do too much I guess I just don't get out and socialize. But I get out every now and then spend the night with my friend. It's ok.

Haven't seen anything amazing on tv lately, help my mom watch my sisters kid every monday-friday. I like to talk about vaping on vape forums. Have a lot of help questions they can help me with theres a good section of their forum devoted to that.

I don't really read anymore, am not well together and organized, I don't have too much together. I play playstation I have a ps4, my online subscription was cancled actually THANKS to my mother (I need my money). I'm saving up to get a house on my own and in angst I am trying. I need 5k in order to give to my grandfather who will fix up actually HIS old house so I can live in it. I used to live in it for like 3 years. Lived with my grandmother before that. Above all, I escaped from my parents house early on. Quit school at 12th grade. Got my GED.

I have a lot of pretty close friends I like to hang out with and I don't like to smoke pot but I drinik, although only occasionally. Like once every 6 months maybe. I have a thing for psychology and interpretation of human social behaviors. I am also a very strong person on the inside. Something I'm proud about. I enjoy playing magic cards. I haven't aged well because I've had a harasser who I believe is the anonymous hacker group, for the past 10 years actually. I feel as if they are harassing me 24/7, you wouldn't believe that I know, but it's the truth. They kept me from moving back in successfully with my parents when I ran into the internet 10 years ago today. I tried to fall in love with the guy who suupposidly runs anonymous, and didn't mean to....

I'm pretty rampant, when it comes to it, I'm definitely proud of myself. I've almost had a lot of love relationships actually. But this thing with anonymous has been the worst, he played with me and probably did something physically harassive to me for 10 years, and it prevents me from calming down or focusing even now and today.

But I do like magic the gathering, don't have money to play it, or to buy vape gear, but I try to get out or do something amazing every now and then. Nothing interesting here, just interested in the world of thought and progressing through the stages as I get older.....  

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Not trashing on your post by hiding it, JBK.  It's just long and I'm not quoting it.    
You're . . . a unique character, I'll give you that.  Like-able, even, when you're not spouting insults.  And you seem to have a lot of curiosity and close ties with your family.  

My great-aunt used to tell me (starting in high school, I wonder why?   )  that the person I DON'T want to talk to is the one with the most interesting stories.  We're all just human, JBK.   It would be lovely if you could drop the Christian vs. evil Atheist shtick and just TALK about, oh, fixing up houses, or how to overcome shyness, or computer hacking, etc.   That would be nice.   We actually have theists on here that we love, you know.