Indoctrination and how it has severly effected me.

[Socratic Meth Head]

Welcome! Don't worry, none of this should be ruining your life - there are more important things than whether you believe in God or not. That being said, of course the christian God and Satan thing is a fairy tale, and a silly one. It just doesn't appear like that to you when you're so close. Wait till you can look at it with a more detached attitude and you'll see that it's just one of thousands of stories people have made up over the millenia.

Well, it matters a lot to me. The doubt consumes me and i need some sense of clarity. I see the evidence for Evolution and it makes sense. I remember always doubting god, and blindly sticking to the belief that any doubt was satan. Now i am stuck with anxiety, doubt, and a racing mind. All i can think about 24/7 is my OCD thoughts and God. Thats it. I lost all entertainment value in my life a bit ago and i am seeing a psychiatrist for some mental issues i have and the indoctrination will fade out soon i hope.