You've already broken free of the indoctrination. What you are doing now is looking back at a time of certainty and feeling nostalgic for the lie. Relax. You weren't indoctrinated in a day and you won't be free of the after effects of religion in the blink of an eye, either.
Stop watching videos - most tend to be superficial. Get a hold of Richard Dawkins "The Greatest Show on Earth" and read it and absorb it at your own speed.
http://www.nytimes.com/2009/10/11/books/....html?_r=0
Patience, friend. Enlightenment will come.
Stop watching videos - most tend to be superficial. Get a hold of Richard Dawkins "The Greatest Show on Earth" and read it and absorb it at your own speed.
http://www.nytimes.com/2009/10/11/books/....html?_r=0
Patience, friend. Enlightenment will come.