Monogamous or not.

[The Viking]

Yeah, I find the idea of it exciting. But I think it's one of things that wouldn't be anything like I imagine when it's actually happening. So it's best kept as a fantasy for me I think. I'd probably get way too jealous as well. And I'd worry that feelings would arise for other people that would put a strain on our relationship.

Right now, it would consist of Emma being free to see other people, and me sitting here thinking about what might be happening. I barely see anyone at all in real life, and none of them have any interest in me anyway.

I don't know if I'd be different if I was the kind of person who did attract people for casual sex. I've never had it, ever. I know I'd always be able to refuse any proposition from anyone while I'm in a monogamous relationship, but I don't know what it feels like to even be in that situation. I'd never cheat on someone, no matter what was happening in our relationship, as long as I've committed myself to them. I could never do that to anyone, and the guilt would eat me alive.

I think it's a grass is greener situation. When I'm single, a committed relationship feels appealing. When I'm in such a relationship, the freedom of not being one feels appealing. I'd be worried if the grass did actually turn out to be green

Tremendous post.