Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...

[J a c k]

Can I just say...
All I want is for everyone to be happy. Thing is, I'm going through shit right now. I can't let anything in that may hurt more. A very lovely girl was sad today and when I was trying to be supportive, I realized my advise should also work for me. I don't want to be selfish with my friends, but if you keep misreading me when all I'm trying to do is take care of you, be your friend, and smile, then I have empty hands. This is what I am. There's no code. No need to decipher me. No need to try and see what I "really" mean. If I like you, I do. If I want to be your friend, I do. If you fuck up and I offer more chances, I mean it. I fuck up all the time. I'm eccentric. My head is not screwed in right. I get it. We all have bad days. Just don't purposely push a blade in my wound to hurt me, because my survival instincts kick in. I will protect myself.

My hugs don't come with a Judas kiss. They just come with lipstick stains. Having said that... I'm still feeling sucky. I'll go curl up and cry now. And no, this isn't anyone's fault. Shit happens.

Peace, love, bacon,
Swag bong