How do you deal with life now that you are an atheist? (With a little of my life)

[Aegon]

I'm a realist. I don't know how to "hope" for things, as pessimistic as that sounds. The only reason I used to be Christian was because I was raised to believe that Catholicism was the truth that should be accepted by everybody. Once I realized it didn't make sense and was probably quite far from the truth, it didn't bother me because I could never force myself to believe something just because it's more comforting. I reached the "Acceptance" stage pretty quickly in every situation, and my de-conversion was no different. I thought to myself, well, if there is no god or afterlife and this is all just...what it is...then that's what it is. No reason to be worried or upset about death while I'm livin'.