How do you deal with life now that you are an atheist? (With a little of my life)

[Organic Machine]

I'm still trying to figure that out. I find it hard not to let it consume me at times, honestly. I guess I'm a realist. I seem to walk a weird line between humanist and misanthrope. I mostly keep to myself but I'd kill to make that one connection with someone that I could be with for the rest of my life. It's this amazing thing that we can do, to love someone, and be loved by them, as a comfort for all the uncertainty in this life. That is something that I search for and it keeps me going. I still have hope for things, but it can be difficult with all that uncertainty in this life. I'm beyond curious about what's out there in the universe. I want to see and discover things, but I feel trapped on this planet with so very few people that I relate to. It has kept me from finding much fulfillment in this life. I currently, as I always have, felt aimless and without any sense of purpose. I'm still searching and I hope I'm not old and full of regrets.