RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 6, 2016 at 5:11 pm
(This post was last modified: September 6, 2016 at 5:12 pm by Edwardo Piet.)
(September 6, 2016 at 2:36 pm)Mamacita Wrote: CIJSAIJBH...
I always fuck up. I mess good things up. I push people away. I hurt people I love. I become isolated. I become cold. I know this. I have a brick for a heart. I'm sorry to all the people I love for being this way. I swear I'm trying. I swear. I swear I push myself to trust, to give in, to be patient, to risk. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry for hurting you. I'm so sorry for pushing you away. For closing the door. For closing my eyes. For keeping my time all to myself. I'm sorry for my bad choices, and for no choices at all. I'm so sorry for making you cry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being dysfunctional.
Just... know one thing... I'm honest. I have been honest. This is it. This is all I am. What you see, this pile of mistakes, bad judgement, this big blob of utter stupidness, this is me. Please stop trying to read between the lines. Why try to know what I REALLY mean? This is it! It's all of it. Take it for what it's worth.
Again, dear world, all my loved ones, I'm sorry.
I feel exactly the same way
