I must say my faith in god gradually dwindled until I finally admitted to myself I had been indoctrinated through:
fear, shame, and guilt into being christian from a tender age.
However...your "true colors" sort of just lay dormant until the match goes off.
I finally had to be honest with myself:
I don't care about the bible, I don't care about god, I don't believe in Jesus.
I've skimmed the other religions but the problem is "faith".
I had no faith in myself so I placed it in some vague entity that does not exist in order to avoid responsibility for the way my life was, my emotions, and allowing people to control my life...to further avoid responsibility.
Spirituality was an escape route for a while but it didn't solve the problem.
Yeah, keep leaving it up to god and see how that works out for you.
Plus...90% of the things I am ashamed of in myself were/are due to religious upbringing.
If I had never read the bible I would be a much happier person but it's not too late to cultivate true inner peace and self acceptance without resorting to superstition, karma, and other silly notions of "otherworldly beings" out to help or hurt me.
I can't continue lying to myself about the real reason I "prayed" to god.
fear, shame, and guilt into being christian from a tender age.
However...your "true colors" sort of just lay dormant until the match goes off.
I finally had to be honest with myself:
I don't care about the bible, I don't care about god, I don't believe in Jesus.
I've skimmed the other religions but the problem is "faith".
I had no faith in myself so I placed it in some vague entity that does not exist in order to avoid responsibility for the way my life was, my emotions, and allowing people to control my life...to further avoid responsibility.
Spirituality was an escape route for a while but it didn't solve the problem.
Yeah, keep leaving it up to god and see how that works out for you.
Plus...90% of the things I am ashamed of in myself were/are due to religious upbringing.
If I had never read the bible I would be a much happier person but it's not too late to cultivate true inner peace and self acceptance without resorting to superstition, karma, and other silly notions of "otherworldly beings" out to help or hurt me.
I can't continue lying to myself about the real reason I "prayed" to god.
