I guess I'll share a tad...
Since the age of 17, if I added up all the days I didn't touch alcohol, I have about one full sober year. I'm 34. Actually began at age 14 but it took awhile before finding the right people to supply my underage drinking habit back then. Man, those early teenage drinking years were such a blissful high. Too bad the more you chase that same high it only drags you lower.
I've spent some time in jail, rehab, the hospital and at the courthouse more than I'd like. I would like to chalk it up to just being an alcoholic, but I'm just a obsessive person. I'm pretty obsessive on whatever I do and sometimes it's great when it comes to work or healthy hobbies, but quite volatile when I find myself dancing in toxins. But this thread clearly states "Substance Abuse" so I won't bother with my my other bazillion addictions.
I've drank day and night on extremely long binges that have sent me to the hospital, but I've swung back and forth and now (most of the time) into a moderate 3 or 4 beer a night person for the last several years, only a couple slip up binges that resulted in job loss and jail in the last 5 years. Far better than my early drinking years however. I typically try to stay away from things that might lead me down bad paths, but alcohol is one of those things I just don't bother trying to quit altogether anymore. I figure it'll occasionally bite hard again, but I'm reliant on it.
Oh, I'm a smoker too. I did quit that for vaping until my vape broke, but then I starated up again. I'm fairly certain I can quit again once I buy a new vape, but I don't know if vaping is truly better or not anyway.
In recovery? For me it's just a long coping procces on learning how to live with my addictive personality and make things work. Maybe that's recovery. Hell if I know, but g'luck to you all!
Since the age of 17, if I added up all the days I didn't touch alcohol, I have about one full sober year. I'm 34. Actually began at age 14 but it took awhile before finding the right people to supply my underage drinking habit back then. Man, those early teenage drinking years were such a blissful high. Too bad the more you chase that same high it only drags you lower.
I've spent some time in jail, rehab, the hospital and at the courthouse more than I'd like. I would like to chalk it up to just being an alcoholic, but I'm just a obsessive person. I'm pretty obsessive on whatever I do and sometimes it's great when it comes to work or healthy hobbies, but quite volatile when I find myself dancing in toxins. But this thread clearly states "Substance Abuse" so I won't bother with my my other bazillion addictions.
I've drank day and night on extremely long binges that have sent me to the hospital, but I've swung back and forth and now (most of the time) into a moderate 3 or 4 beer a night person for the last several years, only a couple slip up binges that resulted in job loss and jail in the last 5 years. Far better than my early drinking years however. I typically try to stay away from things that might lead me down bad paths, but alcohol is one of those things I just don't bother trying to quit altogether anymore. I figure it'll occasionally bite hard again, but I'm reliant on it.
Oh, I'm a smoker too. I did quit that for vaping until my vape broke, but then I starated up again. I'm fairly certain I can quit again once I buy a new vape, but I don't know if vaping is truly better or not anyway.
In recovery? For me it's just a long coping procces on learning how to live with my addictive personality and make things work. Maybe that's recovery. Hell if I know, but g'luck to you all!
