Flashes.

[Jesster]

Expectations were the problem; not religions itself, I bet you not.
God will not come down of heaven riding a golden calf to wipe the tears of your sad week, angles would also not come flying to scare your enemies.

So the disaster happens. One thinks that a day or two in obedience to what the deity said, would rain flowers from the sky. But that doesn't happen. Instead, a bigger disaster might come. Religion then becomes a tag-team with misery.

God is merciful. But he created pain itself. He's not a Zues or a Gaia. He is God. Religion can be hard. Especially if dicks hijacked it through Islamic and Christian and Jewish medieval churches; religious cartels.

It's all about patience. It takes lots to learn that. But thank God, life isn't eternal.

I never said anything about expectations. Projecting much? I think two decades was enough for my patience. I'm not going to waste the rest of my life on woo that made me more suicidal than I've ever been. It will end up being a very short life.