A Search for God That Led to Godlessness

[Sciwoman]

I want to ask you, how do you feel and live with yourself, knowing the pain and terror you have had a ringleaders hand in?

What would you say to your victims, the ones who, in a time of their greatest need or sorrow, were forced to endure the horror of the crowds?

Merely wondering, as you, at one time, would be what I consider to be one of the worse enemies to infest our societal fabric, and have managed turned away from that path some time ago.

That is one thing I really struggled with. I had to go back and mourn that person. It took a long time to come to terms with, but (with some help), I have.

A friend of mine published my story in his newsletter and I got a comment from someone who was on the 'other side.' While people like the person I was at the time made a difficult time more difficult, and caused her more pain than her decision ever did, she was glad I had found my way out of that and could finally see the issue for what it was, not a religious issue, but a woman's rights issue. There is no way I can ever go back and undo what I did, but I feel that both of us found a bit of peace from our encounter with each other.

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@BloodyHeretic...

For a long time it did, but I realized I was wasting more time being angry about that. Besides, those experiences are part of what made me the person I am today. There is no way to change the past, all I can do is take the good from it and go forward.