So my older brother is being buried today.

[Whateverist]

Go to your brothers funeral, lol.  You know you love him.  You miss him.  It's the last you'll see of him.  If we snubbed each others funerals just because people were dicks there wouldn;t -be- any funerals.  

In some failed sense I'm sure that's true.  But he wasn't all that much to look at when he was alive and I hate the way they make up corpses.  But mostly I didn't go (past tense) because I really dislike his wife and kids.  Dealing with their crazy religious ideas is enough fun in the best of times.  They feel even more entitled to their crazy in times like these.  Nah, I'm good.  Family mostly disappoints me.  I'm grateful for my youngest brother, my youngest aunt and one cousin.  Toward the best of the rest, I feel something like the affection one might feel for the gentle family cow.  Grateful for the milk but  meh.

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Sorry to read this, W'ist.

I hope time brings you comfort.

Thanks but I'm good.  I'm in that season when this isn't unexpected.  At 65, he could have gone longer if he gave a shit but nothing I could think to say had any effect on that.  He was done.  

I've thought a lot about him today.  That's enough. I'm really felt a greater loss when my last two dogs died.  

Personally, I still feel emboldened to make a twenty year plan but his dying isn't something we won't all do in time.  I just wish my wife's prospects were better.  I tell her I won't accept less than ten more years or I'll sue her for breach of contract.