...And then there are the days He is silent.

[Amarok]

Didn't your father train you how to be a man and then test your training?

Nope my father taught me to be a decent human being he did care what gender his children were . Because he did see people like that . And he didn't test anything because this isn't anime. Nor am I a dog

Oh. noes!! I've just been fooling myself this whole time... Oh wait a tick.. custom built House- Check, on Land I paid for 20+ years ago -Check, Relationship with my Dad on biblical terms- Check... Am I happy? -Check ++

So you define happiness by stuff you own how sad. As for your farther if you mean your actual father well Stockholm syndrome that has that effect. If you mean god well he clear broke you long ago so same answer.

Maybe it is you who has fooled himself into think that just because you dad beat on you are justified in hating someone forever.

Nope my relationship with my father was built on mutual respect. He never had to hit me because he knew the consequences if he ever did. That respect would be lost .And i would have no father. Just scum who gives himself the title . And yes I would hate him forever and it would be on him to restore the respect . Just as my children own children would have every right to hate me forever. And it would be my job to do the same as my farther.