The day of reckoning has arrived.

[Whateverist]

I recommend starting over.  Just recognize how little you can really be sure of.  Build up from there - but don't rush it and don't assume for one minute that people are capable of knowing everything.  You can do this.

Ok. let us start over then.

But wait a minute brother.  

Start from what?

Any teacher you suggest?  

Nope.  Screw the teachers.  Anyone who has ever wanted to know themselves has started in exactly the same position.  If they can do it, you can do it.  It isn't a matter of passing on some special teaching from the past.  For there to be a correct teaching there had to be someone who discovered it.  If that one could do it, you can do it.  Besides, so long as you're in the mode of searching for the right teacher you are still stuck with the need to pick the right teaching.  If you can identify the right teaching, you can skip that and just figure it out your self.

Or, you can just stick your tail between your legs, suck up to whoever you think is the most impressive teacher, do everything they say and then defend that teacher and his/her teaching to the death .. and then die a person of no consequence.  It's up to you.