Hello, I'm a girl from Romania (a country from East Europe), which is a pretty religious country. Most people are orthodhox christians, I used to be myself.
In Romania religion is OBLIGATORY teached in schools. Ok, not obligatory... if you get grades from other place. At the very least I think so, sorry if I'm misleading, this country's system is bullshit, it's hard for me to get it.
Anyway, so I started learning religion in first grade (Religion is taught from first to twelfth grade). My teacher taught us about the Bible, about how god created Adam and Eve, about how God loves us so much that he can send us to Hell etc.
I, as a stupid kid believed all of that. Then in middle school (just so you know, in Romania it starts at fifth grade) I had a different teacher. She, like the other one, thaught pretty much the same things.
One day (in the seventh grade) I was alone with a friend from my father. I told him something we learned at religion class, and he told me that I shouldn't believe that. He was a christian, he just didn't believe in the Old Testament or in hell.
I was really mad, I tought that my family and friends were brainwashed too (I still think that, but to a lesser level). The fact that an oncle of mine is a priest didn't help. In the eight grade I told my parents that I don't want to go to church anymore and that I want only to pray at home. They didn't understand me so I started to scream. In the end they convinced me that they don't believe in hell, nor do they think that atheists are bad. They only go to church because of positive energy. I calmed myself down and I countinued to belive in Jesus.
But something still felt, I was somethings thinking uncontrollable swear words about the Bible, Jesus and saints. I told this my mother one day and she replied to me that thoughts like that can appear and that I need to think at something else.
I discovered DarkMatter2525 on YouTube and really liked his videos (still a fan by the way!), and with time I become an agnostic theist.
In the eight grade our teacher showed us the movie God's not Dead and I kind of liked it. Years later I looked at the reviews and wondered why it was so hated by critics. I saw a review of this movie on YouTube and than it hit me. I didn't get why it was so bad at first, because I was still brainwashed! That was the last drop!
I was so tented to become an atheist so i looked on arguments for atheism and liked how logical they were. I watched videos from Tj Kirk and Cult of Dusty and some other atheist youtubers. I even started to listen to atheist music.
I didn't tell my family that I'm atheist, I only told my mother that I'm agnostic and she accepted it. She said that I'm free to think what I want!
Though she still encourages me to pray and when my family goes to church I'm forced to come. But instead of praying I'm thinking about atheist songs!
In september I will begin the last year of high school and I'm planning to study at Vienna after that. If I have luck and integrate there I'm planning to become a Buddhist.
Why? because Buddhism is sincere that is man made and is more believable than Christianity. Buddhism is about finding happiness in life and finding balance. Yes, they may have some wrong claims but they don't force you to believe them.
So, this was my story. What do you think? Did you also grow in a religious house (christian, jewish, muslim, etc.). Please tell me.
In Romania religion is OBLIGATORY teached in schools. Ok, not obligatory... if you get grades from other place. At the very least I think so, sorry if I'm misleading, this country's system is bullshit, it's hard for me to get it.
Anyway, so I started learning religion in first grade (Religion is taught from first to twelfth grade). My teacher taught us about the Bible, about how god created Adam and Eve, about how God loves us so much that he can send us to Hell etc.
I, as a stupid kid believed all of that. Then in middle school (just so you know, in Romania it starts at fifth grade) I had a different teacher. She, like the other one, thaught pretty much the same things.
One day (in the seventh grade) I was alone with a friend from my father. I told him something we learned at religion class, and he told me that I shouldn't believe that. He was a christian, he just didn't believe in the Old Testament or in hell.
I was really mad, I tought that my family and friends were brainwashed too (I still think that, but to a lesser level). The fact that an oncle of mine is a priest didn't help. In the eight grade I told my parents that I don't want to go to church anymore and that I want only to pray at home. They didn't understand me so I started to scream. In the end they convinced me that they don't believe in hell, nor do they think that atheists are bad. They only go to church because of positive energy. I calmed myself down and I countinued to belive in Jesus.
But something still felt, I was somethings thinking uncontrollable swear words about the Bible, Jesus and saints. I told this my mother one day and she replied to me that thoughts like that can appear and that I need to think at something else.
I discovered DarkMatter2525 on YouTube and really liked his videos (still a fan by the way!), and with time I become an agnostic theist.
In the eight grade our teacher showed us the movie God's not Dead and I kind of liked it. Years later I looked at the reviews and wondered why it was so hated by critics. I saw a review of this movie on YouTube and than it hit me. I didn't get why it was so bad at first, because I was still brainwashed! That was the last drop!
I was so tented to become an atheist so i looked on arguments for atheism and liked how logical they were. I watched videos from Tj Kirk and Cult of Dusty and some other atheist youtubers. I even started to listen to atheist music.
I didn't tell my family that I'm atheist, I only told my mother that I'm agnostic and she accepted it. She said that I'm free to think what I want!
Though she still encourages me to pray and when my family goes to church I'm forced to come. But instead of praying I'm thinking about atheist songs!
In september I will begin the last year of high school and I'm planning to study at Vienna after that. If I have luck and integrate there I'm planning to become a Buddhist.
Why? because Buddhism is sincere that is man made and is more believable than Christianity. Buddhism is about finding happiness in life and finding balance. Yes, they may have some wrong claims but they don't force you to believe them.
So, this was my story. What do you think? Did you also grow in a religious house (christian, jewish, muslim, etc.). Please tell me.
"By simple common sense I don't believe in God, in none"
Charlie Chaplin
Charlie Chaplin
