This week just got better and better. I woke up this morning, thinking about prayer. That's a very habitual thing that I've done in my life upon waking or going to bed, and when I identified as an atheist a few years back, I had already fallen away from prayer. It was all like a gradual unraveling back then. But I feel like I've been here before, and yet this also feels different because I don't want to believe anymore. Whereas before, I logically rejected faith but still felt uneasy about identifying as an atheist, tbh.
I think that is the game changer now for me, that I just don't want to believe. I'm not afraid to NOT believe, anymore. So, before work, instead of prayer, I reflected on the day, and promised myself that I would do my best to overcome what might come my way. (I like meditation in this regard, too)
I feel really good about how I'm seeing myself.
I think that is the game changer now for me, that I just don't want to believe. I'm not afraid to NOT believe, anymore. So, before work, instead of prayer, I reflected on the day, and promised myself that I would do my best to overcome what might come my way. (I like meditation in this regard, too)
I feel really good about how I'm seeing myself.
