(July 26, 2017 at 8:33 pm)Losty Wrote: CIJS- You literally get mad and mean and start fights every single time I don't want to have sex. You also bring up the fight unprovoked when you're not trying to have sex and you heavily imply and sometimes explicitly say that our relationship is shit unless I have sex with you. You accuse me of mistreating you by not wanting sex, while you completely ignore my own feelings and needs.
This relationship is about you getting off. If not for that, it's not worth it. I'm not worth it. You're sick of it. You're tired of my behavior, you know, the behavior of simply not wanting to be made to have sex when I don't want to.
And every time you do this you chip away at my feelings for you. I am slowly starting to see you as a person I don't want to be with. A person I wouldn't even be friends with. I keep warning you that you need to change. You need to stop acting this way. But you ignore my warnings, and you are doing so at the detriment of our relationship.
(July 26, 2017 at 8:37 pm)Losty Wrote: CIJS also, I know I'm an idiot. I know I am. I look at myself every day in the mirror and I say "S, you are a fucking idiot". I know something is seriously wrong with me that I let myself go through these things. And I think on a deeper level something else really wrong with me that I attract the kind of people who want to do these things to me.
"I was thirsty for everything, but blood wasn't my style" - Live, "Voodoo Lady"
