Processing our mortality

[LadyForCamus]

I wonder, is there such a thing as suicide not driven by a chemically imbalanced depressive state?  Factors such as drug abuse and prolonged physical suffering can bring about the same storm of chemical imbalances seen in clinical depression.

This may not be particularly relevant, but I attempted suicide several times while under the delusion that I needed to end this life in order to journey back to an alternate universe that I originally came from. My suicides were typically attributed to depression, but that wasn't the driving force behind them. I suppose if somebody has the right set of beliefs, regardless of depressive state, they may be capable of suicide. Think of the Heaven's Gate cult deaths.

Wow, Jor! So sorry to hear what you've been through. I think I speak for everyone here when I say that planet earth is fortunate you were unsuccessful. I think you're right that
such a thing is completely possible. When I was young, maybe 10 or so, I would lay awake in bed some nights and try to imagine what heaven was like. All I had in my mind was everything Father and my parents had said over and over about how amazing it's going to be. My father is an avid gun collector, and I recall several occasions where I was extremely tempted to grab a pistol from the bedroom and shoot my self; not because I was sad, but because I was really, really excited to know what heaven was like. As a kid, it felt like waiting endlessly for Christmas morning. Oh, the fucked up things adults teach their children...