Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...

[KevinM1]

CIJS

I'm in a really good place mentally right now. I'm weary of my depression taking this from me like it has before, but it feels different this time. It's not a hyper/manic kind of euphoria, but a more steady/content kind of feeling. Barring something out of my control happening, I can take the long view to the end of the year and feel confident that things will work out in my favor. Instead of just being bored and apathetic, I feel cautiously optimistic.

Now to you - I'm more excited than you can possibly know (and likely far more excited than I should be) that you're coming over next Wednesday. It's been too long, and even though we chat all the time, I miss actually seeing you. I'm happy, and more than a little amazed, that even though it's been years, and our relationship isn't romantic, I can still get that mischievous smile out of you. The one where your eyes shimmer and I forget to breathe for a moment...

If you ever want me to push your boyfriend down a flight of stairs and take his place, just ask....