My Dream Of 1960

[Judas BentHer]

You don't have to believe me, but just bare with me! Time will tell and it's getting closer! Just have patience.

I've learned great patience over the years. It's through living my own life realizing I'm responsible for every bit of it, first. And all others that I share this world with are part of that very small circle of experiences, given there are nearly 7 billion individuals on the planet and I'll meet less than what would amount as a handful in my lifetime.
I don't recognize that an invisible supreme watcher that acts as judge, jury, executioner and voyeur, exists. I don't accept that that being taken on faith to exist, by the majority of the world's population, is there.
For to do so, to visualize it's existence in any form whatever, from anthropomorphic unto a pervasive innate natural energy, is the height of egoism. To think this speck of matter, comprised of water, carbon and other chemicals, is held in esteem as the primary focus of attention to my conduct as a human, by something that is proclaimed to be infinite, omnipresent and omnipotent, is the height of arrogance and elitism.

This is nature. I'm part of it. Not created special to it.
I live my life. And if there is a god, as you believe, and he is all knowing, he is not surprised. And if he is omni-benevolent, he does not mind that I am who his omnipotence created me to be. If "god" is a higher life form a supreme to humans being, and he creates us as less than that and then judges us for our innate shortcomings, made possible by his creative will, he's not god. He's the manufactured illusion born from self-serving egoism in man.

I'd rather live with my own ego. At least I know I'm real and I'm someone I can respect. And I don't damn me, for being me. I live me, until it's over.

This is the dream of dreams and soon you will know. Patience is man's best friend!

As I said, I have come to have enormous patience through the years. And as you don't know me, I'll give you a bit of insight. I know what's on the other side. I've been there. And I am not afraid. Death is the one destiny that unites all humanity in the greater purpose.To live our life and then to die. All else in between is vapor that we breath life into and that is whisked away with the next breath. The past doesn't matter. Regret does not serve, save to take what one would have to regret and to learn from that experience so as to never have cause to feel self pity again. The future is but a dream. Insecure, uncertain, but hoped for.
In truth, there is only now. And you are all you've got to face your personal life with. All others and all else, are accessories. If you need to think something invisible has it's hand on your back, guiding you because you're special, step by step, so be it. Because regardless of that, it is you, flesh and bone and somatic sense, that makes the steps on the journey that only you will feel personally first.

Dream, isn't reality. We awake from dreams. And some would say when we die that is our awakening. I know that. However, I also know that what is there reminded me that I'm not special when I shrug off this flesh and the consciousness that finds itself at home in an ego.

This life, left behind, no longer matters. Because it is no longer matter.
Your dream, doesn't even begin to describe what you'll find waiting. And that's just at a level you can comprehend, while still able to return to life. What's beyond that, no one lives to tell.

Welcome to your new world! It will be an exiting ride for all of us! But be not afraid because even if you die during the ride, you will be saved to your last sin! But I warn you, do no harm to anyone for your ride will be too long!

You live as if your life includes the concept of sin.

I'll live free.