Enlightened rants...

[Aegon]

Maybe it's my lack of resolve to obey you
Maybe it's my ingratitude towards your favors
Maybe it's my apathy towards the oppressed
Maybe it's my arrogance that I keep 
Maybe it's my lack of fear thinking I am entitled to safety
Maybe it's my belittling the evil of my sins
Maybe it's that I value myself still more than you
Maybe it's that I have become too at peace with the darkness of my soul and place.
Maybe it's my pretending that hell does not surround me when I see that it does.
Maybe it's my wasting time despite all the wisdom and knowledge I have of the path I must follow
Maybe it's sheer lack of love towards the family of the reminder
Maybe it's something viler than all this, something even eviler.
But I am tired of what I've become and want to change.
So do help me change, and help me through family, friends, and your guidance that you appointed and brought forth to mankind.
And do not leave me to myself alone.

Regardless of your religious beliefs, you need more than faith in a higher power to find meaning and happiness. Those things with only be found within YOU. You are special, and you can overcome obstacles yourself. People are capable of great things. Don't let anybody or anything tell you otherwise.

In order to truly better yourself, you must self reflect while disregarding God. Only then can you figure out what's really troubling you. Just you and yourself, alone.