Well, I had a relapse and was roped into going to Xurch because a friend needed a ride.
I got involved again and the insanity was right where I left it!
First, they began to circle, then they began to ask questions, then they began to denounce me.
When I gave in and just acted like them, then they decided I was not good enough. I swore too much. I was not a virgin enough. I was to opinionated. I was a danger to other xers.
Then I tried again to really believe like them!! I was scared. THEN they really got me. Then they told me to name it and claim it. Then they told me to be afraid of g-d, afraid of words, afraid of everything.
I am weak and I fell. I relapsed. And I spent days without sleep, tormented, in hell even though I was still here!
To be fair, these were fundies. I know some xers who could care less, like Episcopaleans who could care less if they even believe in a god. That is all optional. HA!
What kind of power is in that twisted sh*t?????
Better now. Have not talked to them for a long time. The stain in lifting, although I live with xers who gather and worship and drive me NUTS.
I got involved again and the insanity was right where I left it!
First, they began to circle, then they began to ask questions, then they began to denounce me.
When I gave in and just acted like them, then they decided I was not good enough. I swore too much. I was not a virgin enough. I was to opinionated. I was a danger to other xers.
Then I tried again to really believe like them!! I was scared. THEN they really got me. Then they told me to name it and claim it. Then they told me to be afraid of g-d, afraid of words, afraid of everything.
I am weak and I fell. I relapsed. And I spent days without sleep, tormented, in hell even though I was still here!
To be fair, these were fundies. I know some xers who could care less, like Episcopaleans who could care less if they even believe in a god. That is all optional. HA!
What kind of power is in that twisted sh*t?????
Better now. Have not talked to them for a long time. The stain in lifting, although I live with xers who gather and worship and drive me NUTS.
