Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...

[Ravenshire]

CIJS,

I think I've come to the end of my journey in mathematics: as I've dug deeper into the subject, I've realized just how tiny I am compared to the great mathematical minds of history and the current, brilliant math minds in the field.  As a result, while I'm grateful for the knowledge that I've gained (initially, I only wanted to learn calculus 1 and gain some kind of an understanding of it ),  I've finally accepted that I don't have the brains to accel and grow at math: any kind of continued mathematical study on my part, would only amount to a hobby, and realistically, I lack the brilliance, originality, and talent to be somebody in the math field; I'm somewhat disappointed in myself for being arrogant enough to think that I could be one of these people.     
 
Well, with that said, I'd like  to apologize to all of the math aficionados on this forum for all of my math related posts here: I sincerely hope that my ideas and posts were not too elementary and vacuous .

(emphasis is mine)

Don't be disappointed in aiming at the stars and hitting the mountain top instead. Most never aim higher than their feet.

But, since you've decided not to be a world renowned mathematician, you can hone that voice and get busy on some audio books!