My mom is dying, going to need an ear.

[Brian37]

I have not been following the thread.  Not sure if your mom is dead yet or still dying.  I am not being insensitive, this is just how I approach everything.  I, unfortunately, do not have much of a bedside manner.  The death of others, even my own family, does not affect me in any way, yet I suppose I can somewhat understand how it concerns others.

She died March 1rst 2017. 

I cant tell you how to cope, but I can say, you can get to the point of numbness or indifference not because you lack emotions, but because you would go nuts if you dwell on it.

I don't see anything magic in her death, or that of any cosmic sky wizard nor a punishment to me. I accept it is a reality. In that context you cant do anything about that reality. But yea, I feel the loss. I want her back. I know that wont happen, but I do want her back. 

I would think unless you are a psychopath you have at least some family or friends or co workers that if where suddenly not there it would give you pause. 

Isn't there someone in your life even if they did not die, that said "I have to move" whom you wish didn't have to because you got along so well with them?

I feel a huge loss, not because of magic or gods. I feel a huge loss with my mom, because even with our differences, she always had my back, and she grew to accept me the way I was. The bittersweet aspect was all the simple silly jokes and games we made up in recent years. I would give anything to have another day with her.