I will become Atheist if.....

[Aegon]

Value cannot be arbitrary for it to be meaningful to me.

And value if it was not eternal, would be arbitrary.

Just the very fact value came to be and didn't always exist, from Atheistic framework, makes it arbitrary.

This is true even if a Creator exists. If a creator was valueless and created value, then value as we know it would not be what it is but rather an arbitrary illusion and deception.

All value of all things existed before in a unity from my perspective.  If they didn't, then their creation would not be based on truth but falsehood and arbitrary nature.

And than meaning in value becomes rather meaningless.  Like some drug we depend on to feel good but has no reality.

MK, I got some bad news for you. Life is kind of chaos, and almost everything is arbitrary the more you look at it. The fact that you have trouble with that is the source of your problem. I suggest thinking about my signature for a while.