hi all

[Ace Otana]

I hold the hope for an afterlife because I cannot deal/grasp the concept of not existing. Ideally I would be in a happy place surrounded by loved ones. The thought of losing them or not being able to interact with them is upsetting.

Reality isn't about what we want it to be. It is the way it is, we cannot change it. Reality can be wonderful and upsetting. If I knew there was a lovely life after death where loved ones go, I'd never feel upset when loved ones die. However, in this reality, when they die, I'm very certain that I'll never see or speak to them again. For all eternity we'll be apart. It hurts, but I still want to see reality for what it is. I don't want some blind fold or blanky to make everything seem nicer.
It's that all important question: If you had cancer, would you want the doctor to lie to you and say you're fine or tell you the truth?

Well its not just that. Its the fact I cannot grasp non existance. How can you fathom not existing, if all we know is existance? Either way however many billion people have already gone through it so I guess we are all in the same boat regardless, and we can't stop it from happening.

Around 900 billion are dead. We will join them at some point.
To grasp non-existence is to not feel or think at all. Much like being asleep, except no dreaming and no waking up. Not too hard to imagine.
Not scary being dead, you won't even know that you're dead.

As someone else mentioned, being immortal does actually sound like quite a good idea

I like the idea, I really do. To go on with loved ones where there is no crime or war, no disease, pain, anger or regret. No yobs, murderers or rapists. But I've got to be realistic. Just because it sounds nice, doesn't mean it's true. "Just because poison tastes good, doesn't mean you should drink it".
"If it sounds too good to be true, it most likely is".