Question

[Mister Agenda]

Hi everyone.  First of all I want to be honest and let you know that I am a Bible believing Christian.  I did not join this forum with the intentions to attack, debate, or belittle anyone. I expect the same treatment, please.  I am doing a personal study on the topic of apostasy of the Christian faith. Some believers think that a person of Christian faith can choose to not follow Jesus.  I do have my own beliefs about this subject of which i will not discuss.  I do personally know of one person who kind of turned away for a period of time , but eventually returned to the faith.  I am here to ask if there are any of people who were a bible believing, Christ following, Christian who chose to "walk away" from that belief.  If so, how long were you a follower of Jesus and why did you abandon that faith?  What is your belief now?
Thank you so much for your time.
G.

I was raised Pentecostal and was very devout. I spoke in tongues, prayed a lot, agonized over my sins, etc. But...my parents were divorced. My mother was a different kind of Pentecostal from my father, so of course, she was going to hell. My step-mother was Catholic. I started getting serious about my religion around age 12 and read the NT. When I was about 15 I read the KJV cover-to-cover. I hoped I misunderstood it, so I read a modern English version cover-to-cover as well. It turned out I had understood it fine. Over and over while I read that book, I would read events in which God did things that were barbaric or otherwise morally reprehensible. I noticed inconsistencies too, and how God changed as the Bible progressed, but the main thing that struck me was that I, a mere imperfect mortal, could think of more ethical ways of dealing with issues than the loving omnipotent unchanging creator and ruler of the universe.

That experience didn't make me an atheist, more an agnostic theist or Somethingist, but it convinced me that God had little or nothing to do with the Bible. I had too high an opinion of God to believe what his supposed biographers had to say about him. It would be about 20 more years before I started considering myself an atheist, though.