I think that sometimes, people find that I am overly sensitive to criticism. And it's completely true, I can't deny it. But it wasn't always true. I used to be good at taking criticism in my job and even personal life.
I find online interactions particularly frustrating, because it's hard to read people, and it's easy to toss out casual criticism of almost everything, from what a person enjoys doing in their free time, to how they type, basically everything is up for grabs. And there are so few filters.
If you have ever lived with someone who criticises you often, then you will understand how easy it is to become sensitive to it. If a person is made to feel incompetent on a regular basis, they start to doubt themselves in every aspect of life, and even small amounts of criticism from others will cause them to withdraw socially. It's like having a sore that is never allowed to heal, or callous over. It just gets poked bloody and raw every day.
I'm trying to get past it, but it is very difficult. For a while, I tried detaching myself emotionally, but that also had severe repercussions.
I still feel the need to socialize, which is one reason I still come to AF. But I feel I am growing worse at human interactions. My circle of RL friends has shrunk to 0, and I can hardly look at anything in the digital world without getting upset.
I thought I was ready to come back and interact again. But now I'm not sure. Has anyone else dealt this this sort of thing?
I find online interactions particularly frustrating, because it's hard to read people, and it's easy to toss out casual criticism of almost everything, from what a person enjoys doing in their free time, to how they type, basically everything is up for grabs. And there are so few filters.
If you have ever lived with someone who criticises you often, then you will understand how easy it is to become sensitive to it. If a person is made to feel incompetent on a regular basis, they start to doubt themselves in every aspect of life, and even small amounts of criticism from others will cause them to withdraw socially. It's like having a sore that is never allowed to heal, or callous over. It just gets poked bloody and raw every day.
I'm trying to get past it, but it is very difficult. For a while, I tried detaching myself emotionally, but that also had severe repercussions.
I still feel the need to socialize, which is one reason I still come to AF. But I feel I am growing worse at human interactions. My circle of RL friends has shrunk to 0, and I can hardly look at anything in the digital world without getting upset.
I thought I was ready to come back and interact again. But now I'm not sure. Has anyone else dealt this this sort of thing?
“Eternity is a terrible thought. I mean, where's it going to end?”
― Tom Stoppard, Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead
― Tom Stoppard, Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead
