Do you have to suppress things about you, because if you didn’t people would assume you’re a nutcase? I’m not talking about normal quirks.
I feel physically ill when I hear babies or toddlers cry. I was at work yesterday and there were three babies with different mommas at the same time waiting in a lobby area. I wanted to cry and hold the babies so bad. I wanted to run away from the place to make it go away. The sound of babies crying makes me think of horror. So, I worked my ass off the rest of the day and tried my best to function like a normal human. Yes, I threw up. Yes, I had to focus every minute to not show my true feelings. If I don’t put in the effort to blend in, I could probably end up losing my job, because we deal with all kind of sad and traumatic cases. A baby crying should not put me in this situation. So, I blend.
Is there anything that you have to suppress when in public? Or am I the only weirdo?
This week has been hell, honestly. Everything is a trigger.
I feel physically ill when I hear babies or toddlers cry. I was at work yesterday and there were three babies with different mommas at the same time waiting in a lobby area. I wanted to cry and hold the babies so bad. I wanted to run away from the place to make it go away. The sound of babies crying makes me think of horror. So, I worked my ass off the rest of the day and tried my best to function like a normal human. Yes, I threw up. Yes, I had to focus every minute to not show my true feelings. If I don’t put in the effort to blend in, I could probably end up losing my job, because we deal with all kind of sad and traumatic cases. A baby crying should not put me in this situation. So, I blend.
Is there anything that you have to suppress when in public? Or am I the only weirdo?
This week has been hell, honestly. Everything is a trigger.
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