Question about permanent death

[Nakara]

Hmmm. This is a subject that has been ebbing on my mind for a few days lately. I hate thinking about the finality of death--I hate thinking of well, not thinking! Not breathing! Not feeling! Not...being! But then I remember what it was like for the billions of years before I was born--that wasn't so bad. I've passed out a few times--death is more final, obviously, but I don't recall those experiences being unpleasant, even though in one instance I was convinced I was dying (yay, anxiety). With any luck, my death will just be me passing out and not waking up.

It just sucks. It sucks majorly. To quote a song from FF14 (yes I'm a dweeb but this line is still pretty profound), "Tell us why, given life, we are meant to die, helpless in our cries?"

It sucks that we're smart enough to realize our mortality and just what that means. I get why some people believe in an afterlife. It's comforting.

But me? Nah. As much as I would like to continue existing, I also don't think that humans are made for eternity, and the reality is...is death is final. We are our brains--once the brain is toast so are YOU. There is NO evidence to suggest otherwise.

I'm young and still have much to live for, but I can see myself getting tired as I get older. I can see how oblivion/eternal rest CAN be comforting, it's just still a little scary for me. And, of course, it sucks that I won't get to see how the human story unfolds. That said, I'm thankful I get to play at least a small part in it.