Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...

[KevinM1]

For me, it's a combination of a couple things.  

First, I've always been introverted IRL.  Where a lot of people feel energized by social engagements, or at least consider them somewhat fun, I've always found them stressful.  I abhor small talk, and, frankly, don't really know how to 'make conversation' because it feels so fake and forced.  I do my best at it, to spew out what unimportant bullshit I think they want to hear, but it definitely doesn't come natural to me.  I feel like I'm a one-man show, up on stage and performing for those around me.  Essentially, on-demand lying.

Second, my beliefs, interests, and passions are completely different than almost everyone else I know.  They're not that way out of any kind of misguided sense of rebellion or individuality, but simply makes the most sense to me.  I'm the only atheist I know IRL.  I'm pretty politically liberal (by US standards), whereas most people I know are moderate to conservative.  I enjoy various sports (American football, baseball, hockey, etc.), but find that most people who consider themselves fans don't know jack shit about what they're trying to talk about.  I'm pretty nerdy, but outside of two other people, no one else is even close.  I don't care about cars (I can't drive, so why would I?).  I don't care about guns.  I'm picky about what music/TV/movies/books I consume.  I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, etc., so the things that other people do to 'loosen up and have fun' are anathema to me.

So, for the sake of social cohesion, I play a role for a few hours.  I get nothing out of it, outside of stress and fatigue.

So, how are you today?