I'm in a similar position to you. As you know, I have MS as well. I've also got a lot of complex trauma coming to the surface again. I've managed to tackle the MS well enough that I have had no new lesions in a year. I had a brain scan last April and the April before that and the scans were unchanged. I did this using the Overcoming Multiple Sclerosis diet. The first year wasn't so successful because I had stress from a house move and made a few mistakes with diet (e.g. finding that vegetable soup had coconut mllk in it). But since then I've been a lot stricter. I try to cut out all saturated fats as much as possible. I avoid cooked oils, meat and especially for me dairy because I have found that I now have an intolerance to milk (it made my nose run all the time). I also vape cannabis Friday and Saturday night, or sometimes instead if I feel particularly stressed or if my symptoms start to get worse. Symptoms are now generally getting better and disappearing, except for the lack of sensitivity in my fingers but I think that's because some nerves have actually died and can't be replaced.
One side effect of the cannabis though is that it's made it more difficult for me to suppress my emotions and this has allowed my complex trauma to become a problem again. It's like all the problems I had were just put on hold for 20 years. But sorting it out will make it easier for me to deal with stress better and will therefore help me control the MS. It's not that I forgot what happened to me, I just forgot how it felt at the time and those memories have started to resurface again. I had a debilitating flashback just last Friday in fact. It was a toilet break during a film and I came out the toilet and just sat on the ground. I just sat there crying and couldn't move for half an hour until I managed to force myself downstairs to where my husband was waiting.
I've started counselling though and what I found was that it's very important to find a counsellor that you can work with. The first one was completely wrong for me and just made everything worse, whereas the new one is really helping.
One side effect of the cannabis though is that it's made it more difficult for me to suppress my emotions and this has allowed my complex trauma to become a problem again. It's like all the problems I had were just put on hold for 20 years. But sorting it out will make it easier for me to deal with stress better and will therefore help me control the MS. It's not that I forgot what happened to me, I just forgot how it felt at the time and those memories have started to resurface again. I had a debilitating flashback just last Friday in fact. It was a toilet break during a film and I came out the toilet and just sat on the ground. I just sat there crying and couldn't move for half an hour until I managed to force myself downstairs to where my husband was waiting.
I've started counselling though and what I found was that it's very important to find a counsellor that you can work with. The first one was completely wrong for me and just made everything worse, whereas the new one is really helping.
