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[EgoDeath]

Years of therapy will teach you that the only real way to deal with past trauma is to not focus on it. However it's one things to '"know" this logically and another thing entirely to "feel" it as a truth in your life. There may be some people who have "revelations" and in a single moment "get over" all of their past trauma, but I think that's pretty rare. Most bad shit that has happened to people IS truly bad shit. It's terrible to be abused/molested/neglected when you're young and there's often no real way to spin it any other way; it just sucks.

So yea, I think for most of us, simply learning to not focus on all the negative life has to offer is the only real solution. I think some people have probably driven themselves crazy thinking about how pointless life truly is, or how much evil their is in the world, etc. If you choose to focus on those negative things, that's where you'll live; in constant negativity.

I think it's easy to focus on the past or get wrapped up in the future and what it might bring... it's much more, or can be much more difficult to learn how to live in the moment and focus on what's actually in front of you. Learning to enjoy the things in life that bring you joy can be difficult if you have a lot of trauma in your past.

I don't have the answer, other than saying I think we just can't focus on all of the negative in our lives. As others have suggested, it might be a good idea for you to sit down with a professional and get some perspective on these things that are "playing over and over on a loop" in your mind.