More than 12 years of living with schizoaffective disorder has utterly demolished my behavioral autopilot. It's all manual thinking and behavior. I envy people that can drive cars without concentrating on steering & maintaining velocity, they just drive. In effect, I'm sensitive to stimuli in my behavior and thought that doesn't correspond with reality, likewise from how people use language and how they behave. This doesn't mean I'm hyper aware or some expert on body language, just that I parse everything while trying to maintain a focus.
"The first principle is that you must not fool yourself — and you are the easiest person to fool." - Richard P. Feynman
