I can't remember if I mentioned this on here before, but since it's a new year coming to an end I thought I'd share some things I've been going through for the last five years.
Five years ago I developed a severe mental illness that was diagnosed as "Unspecified Schizophrenia" which meant I heard voices, I saw things that weren't there, I carried delusions, and have serious gaps in my memory. The funny thing (and not funny at the same time) is that the voices just had to take on certain personalities. What were they? God, Satan, and Death. Though interestingly enough these voices were female personas at first before they shifted over to their default male personas.
It started with delusions and I tried to get help, but nobody thought it was serious enough to get me help. So, sadly for me, I end up committing a crime and getting thrown in jail. They figure out I'm not in my right mind and I get sent to Larned State Hospital. I go back and forth between that place and jail three times before I get to a step down which sent me to Osawatomie, Kansas. Then after a year or two in there I get sent to a nursing home facility called Countryside which is where I'm at currently. And lucky me I get to make YouTube videos, have a laptop, and even have my game consoles and video games brought over so I can play them. Progress.
It was hard the first couple of years, but I eventually got to the point where I'm much more stable. I haven't heard any of the voices since January of 2017 and I haven't had an incident since then. This is actually the first time I admitted online that I've been in jail, but it feels good to let it out. I take my meds everyday and will make damn sure that this never overtakes me again. Fuck you, Schizophrenia! You're pain in the ass!
So... questions? Comments? In case you're wondering what it was I actually did I literally just walked into a house that wasn't my own, sat on the sofa and watched TV while talking shit. Literally it.
Five years ago I developed a severe mental illness that was diagnosed as "Unspecified Schizophrenia" which meant I heard voices, I saw things that weren't there, I carried delusions, and have serious gaps in my memory. The funny thing (and not funny at the same time) is that the voices just had to take on certain personalities. What were they? God, Satan, and Death. Though interestingly enough these voices were female personas at first before they shifted over to their default male personas.
It started with delusions and I tried to get help, but nobody thought it was serious enough to get me help. So, sadly for me, I end up committing a crime and getting thrown in jail. They figure out I'm not in my right mind and I get sent to Larned State Hospital. I go back and forth between that place and jail three times before I get to a step down which sent me to Osawatomie, Kansas. Then after a year or two in there I get sent to a nursing home facility called Countryside which is where I'm at currently. And lucky me I get to make YouTube videos, have a laptop, and even have my game consoles and video games brought over so I can play them. Progress.
It was hard the first couple of years, but I eventually got to the point where I'm much more stable. I haven't heard any of the voices since January of 2017 and I haven't had an incident since then. This is actually the first time I admitted online that I've been in jail, but it feels good to let it out. I take my meds everyday and will make damn sure that this never overtakes me again. Fuck you, Schizophrenia! You're pain in the ass!
So... questions? Comments? In case you're wondering what it was I actually did I literally just walked into a house that wasn't my own, sat on the sofa and watched TV while talking shit. Literally it.
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