Yeah I know, I'm just frustrated. I have a few personal problems that render me incapable of relating to the rest of humanity in any meaningful way. You even said yourself, that I am "unlovable", well that's pretty much true. There's no room for love in my reality. It's all anger, boredom, hatred, and misery. I'm not even sure I've ever felt what people call "happy" at any point in my life. And to top it all off, I'm not allowed to do anything fun anymore. I can't drink, I can't smoke weed, I can't edge to porn for hours at a time, nothing. It's like God wants me to be bored and miserable.
"Imagination, life is your creation"
