Food addiction

[Ahriman]

This is unrelated to my other dependencies......I mean, those aren't that bad. Not great, but managable. But food is one thing that is really slowing me down (figuratively and literally) in life. I can't just "stop" eating, I mean I literally can't, feeling hungry is absolutely one hundred percent unacceptable for me, if I am hungry, I must eat, period. I won't be able to focus on anything else until I've eaten. And then when I do eat, I feel a sense of relief, almost like being "happy" I guess? Not that I've ever felt happy in my whole life, so I'm not really sure what genuine happiness is supposed to feel like, but maybe this is close. But that brief sense of relief is not substantial, as not being able to eat makes me sad. Are any of you dealing with something similar? I fucking love chocolate candy bars and pizza......