(October 1, 2023 at 2:01 am)Ahriman Wrote: This is unrelated to my other dependencies......I mean, those aren't that bad. Not great, but managable. But food is one thing that is really slowing me down (figuratively and literally) in life. I can't just "stop" eating, I mean I literally can't, feeling hungry is absolutely one hundred percent unacceptable for me, if I am hungry, I must eat, period. I won't be able to focus on anything else until I've eaten. And then when I do eat, I feel a sense of relief, almost like being "happy" I guess? Not that I've ever felt happy in my whole life, so I'm not really sure what genuine happiness is supposed to feel like, but maybe this is close. But that brief sense of relief is not substantial, as not being able to eat makes me sad. Are any of you dealing with something similar? I fucking love chocolate candy bars and pizza......
Good luck to you. Have you tried hypnosis to convert that urge into something more constructive? Doctors gave me a shit ton of morphine back in the day, I got better but the jones was still there. A hypnotist, experimental with the Navy hospitals tried sublimating the urge. It worked, but I was luck I didn't run into Jane Fonda IRL or I'd have gone to jail.
