Smoking

[Angrboda]

This is me. I've always seen smoking as a binary. Perhaps because it's an addiction. I either smoke or I don't. There is no middle ground. It's also the biggest reason I won't have "just one," no matter how bad the desire. Just one leads to just one more, chasing that nicotine buzz until I'm hooked through the bag once again.

Yeah, the notion of "cutting down" was always a fool's errand for people like us wasn't it? But this is something different I think; some people really do just not feel the need for it except in very limited times/situations. The main reason it doesn't make sense to me is just that you need to have a certain amount of nicotine in your system to get the buzz in the first place, so if some people can literally have one smoke a month or whatever, I don't see how it could physically provide any satisfaction; you'd need to have a few just to get the effect, is what I'm saying.

That's not necessarily true. I was in the hospital once and wasn't allowed outside for a few weeks. When I finally was, I lit up. It floored me. I was dizzy and felt like throwing up.