So thank you for all the answers.
First: so yes, english is far away from being my mother tongue, and I have to look up words, so I surely also choose expressions that are unusual or not suiting well. In the second place, the correction function of taptalk really is annoying me, since it often changes my words. I re-read what I wrote afterwards, but I am sometimes do not find the wrongly 'corrected' words.
What adds to this fact is that I am really confused, and obviously have problems to define a clear question, so I think I wrote to find my question, not to ask a question. I read across several threads and looked up some terms in a dictionary and then all my thougths rolled over quite a bit. I am still not satisfied with this deity-thing I feel. But what makes it so unsatisfying?
Let me have another try.
From the view of my grandfather, the thing is clear. There is nothing beyond physical world. Also no god, that is an entity. Even I do not have a need for a controlling or interfering entity, and think that such entities are projections, I've problems with this total refusement of every kind of metaphysics. But this is maybe the problem of beeing trapped in my thoughts at the moment, as you mentioned.
Uhm, don't know. I am still confused and also not satisfied... I guess, if the answer is 42, I still have to search for the rigth question.
First: so yes, english is far away from being my mother tongue, and I have to look up words, so I surely also choose expressions that are unusual or not suiting well. In the second place, the correction function of taptalk really is annoying me, since it often changes my words. I re-read what I wrote afterwards, but I am sometimes do not find the wrongly 'corrected' words.
What adds to this fact is that I am really confused, and obviously have problems to define a clear question, so I think I wrote to find my question, not to ask a question. I read across several threads and looked up some terms in a dictionary and then all my thougths rolled over quite a bit. I am still not satisfied with this deity-thing I feel. But what makes it so unsatisfying?
Let me have another try.
From the view of my grandfather, the thing is clear. There is nothing beyond physical world. Also no god, that is an entity. Even I do not have a need for a controlling or interfering entity, and think that such entities are projections, I've problems with this total refusement of every kind of metaphysics. But this is maybe the problem of beeing trapped in my thoughts at the moment, as you mentioned.
Uhm, don't know. I am still confused and also not satisfied... I guess, if the answer is 42, I still have to search for the rigth question.
