I read the first paragraph in your immense wall of text, then I fell asleep. When I woke up, I decided to just skip the rest and answer your question:
"Can anyone explain how this wasn't God?"
Answer: It wasn't God because there is no God. You're Welcome.
"Can anyone explain how this wasn't God?"
Answer: It wasn't God because there is no God. You're Welcome.
"If there are gaps they are in our knowledge, not in things themselves." Chapman Cohen
"Shit-apples don't fall far from the shit-tree, Randy." Mr. Lahey
"Shit-apples don't fall far from the shit-tree, Randy." Mr. Lahey