Freedom of Religion

[Abracadabra]

Ah, so, a puzzle emerges. You have such an extreme version of a mystery faith that it is known only to you, comprehendable or understandable only by you?

That probably is true. But it wasn't my idea to make it this way. It's just the way things worked out.

Well, I mean, obviously I chose the paths that led me to my current beliefs. But I didn't make those choices with the intent to end up any particular place. I simply followed my heart and chose the things that called to me, and here I am. And that's what I personally recommend for everyone, even if they are called to Christianity which I constantly say horrible things about. And of course secular atheism is fine too, or Buddhism, or whatever. Everyone should follow what calls to them.

Should I have a faith that makes sense only to myself as well?

Well it would certainly be silly to have a faith that doesn't make sense to you.

So that much is a given.

Whether or not it "only" makes sense to you is likely to be beyond your control.

Currently you appear to have faith that science has ruled out all possibility of a spiritual essence to reality. As far as I can tell that faith is not unique, I've met other people who believe similarly so I'm willing to bet that you can easily find other people who share your faith and believe it makes sense as well.

I doubt that you planned for things to work out that way. Although, for all I know you may have been convinced by others to believe as you do.

By the way, I'm not attempting to convince you to take on a spiritual view of reality. If you're happy with a secular view of life more power to you. I'm certain that your cosmic higher self isn't going to cast you into hell for not recognizing your true nature. In fact, if you aren't recognizing your true nature it can only be because this is how you prefer things to be. So that's what you should do by all means.

There's nothing wrong with believing that life is an accident and that humans are nothing more than highly evolved dirt. As long as you don't treat people like dirt, I'm sure it won't be a problem.

Just kidding of course!

I know that you're really made of star stuff and your the child of a grand supernova. So I'm sure you'll treat everyone like they are a star as well.

You simply can't believe in a spiritual essence to life.

I can't believe in a secular universe.

Trust me I've tried. I simply can't believe that this grand universe and life as we know it is just some sort of fleeting accident that just popped out of nowhere. I mean truthfully, that's every bit as bizarre and weird to me as a spiritual reality.

I confess that they are both utterly absurd and weird.

However, I've thought about it long and hard and my conclusion is this:

Which of these possible truths of reality makes more sense?

My answer is that neither has a leg up on the other. They are both utterly ridiculous. So I can't come to a firm intellectual logical conclusion. Either scenario is equally illogical to me. They are both truly absurd. And I can't rule out either one of them.

Which am I drawn to intuitively? That's easy, I'm definitely a spiritual person on an emotional level. Maybe it's the "romantic" in me, but whatever it is, I definitely lean toward spirituality intuitively. It's even hard for me to actually imagine a truly secular existance. I mean "intuitively" that just doesn't make any "sense" to me at all.

So, if I can't come to a firm conclusion using logic, and I'm intuitively leaning toward a spiritual essence of reality why not "Go with the flow" as they say.

Why fight my spiritual intuition to become a secular atheist when I don't even have a solid logical reason to do that? I may as well choose to believe that life is spiritual. That's how I truly feel about it intuitively anyway.

So I accept that the universe is a mystical magical place created and sustained by a cosmic consciousness of which I am a part.

It hasn't hurt me to do this. On the contrary I find it quite enjoyable, and it works well for me. Save for being harassed by the Christians for not accepting Jesus as my Savior, and constantly being called "stupid" by secular atheists.

But you know what? I really don't care about any of that superficial silliness.

Well, it would be nice to be seen as an intelligent person and given some respect once in a while. But if I have to lie to people about my spiritual or religious beliefs to gain their respect what would be the point to it?

I'm just going to tell everyone the truth, and let the cards fall where they may.

In my case, those would be Tarot cards of course.