Why am I me?

[dogma]

I do not believe we have bodies, I believe we are bodies. When my body fails or malfunctions (especially me 28 years old and gamble and drink as if planet x were coming) my entire being, my thoughts, my feeling, my desires, my love will all cease to exist. I understand that entirely, the energy that makes up my body will continue on in other forms but me, my arrangement which i am glad came about will be over. I believe science can explain everything but as for me religious views let me make something clear. It's based on faith (what you say superstition and fairytales). To me religion can be a problem but not the search for God. The bible can not be taken literally, it never was by me. Jesus spoke in parables, we all know that those stories he told never happened, he was giving a guideline to live. To hate is scientifically proven to reduce your lifespan, so forgive your enemies otherwise the burden you hold is like living in hell. Anyways i am here to convert no one. The fact is it's a mystery to why one brain decides to be one person a unique individual who simply exists for no reason at all so you say. Memories and experiences make us who we are true when your speaking about character. The question here is why are my memories my experiences are unique to "me" whatever "me" is. It surly does not have to be me and furthermore, i was in charge of my body long before i experienced anything at all. Most of my experiences and memories were choices I made to experience. I was still me before I made those connections in my brain to become a good musician. Memories and experiences do not explain why your body chose to bring you into existence and not one of the other billions of life forms. It's a mystery to us all and if it proves to be evidence of something more then so be it. I am not an anti-theist, I welcome the idea of grand designer. Christopher Hitchens was against it which was his freedom of choice to make. I on the other hand do not welcome the idea of never existing or never seeing my loved ones again. So I will search for something more but never impose on others anything or condemn anyone. I may find nothing at all, i may find something or i may be dismissed all together but in the end I hope God is standing there. Hate and war is all a human condition, rid the world of religion believe me people will find ways to kill again (oil, money, greed, land, race, political beliefs and they will always invent something to keep killing)....evolutionary instincts are the reason we are in troulble not religion. If religion were invented by man then man will go on iventing other reason to keep on thinking one is better then the other long after religion is gone.