Simmering hatred

[Moonman]

I was born in Ireland, baptized, confirmed, took the host which represents the body of a 2000 year old dead Jew, supposedly. I was confirmed when I was 12 after being rejected as an altarboy for stealing and drinking the simulated blood of Christ. Confirmation was nothing but a chance to glean some money from neighbours and relatives, I remember the girls in thier little wedding dresses being dragged around the neighbourhood by their mothers, hands out. I was spared that humiliation and bought myself a Honda 50 with my haul. One has to choose a saint´s name as part of the ritual and I had just recently seen The Omen, guess what saint I found.... St. Damian, the saint of lepers and chose that. Not that I believed in the Devil either, I wanted to get a laugh out of it and did. I knew there was no God at 10, and like Santa Claus, I wanted to believe it but couldn´t, same way I can´t pretend to be in love with someone.When all the cases of child abuse and torture came out in Ireland in the 80´s, I started to truely hate the Catholic Church, their fucking nuns would never stop to give me a lift in their big cars in the rain, they didn´t know I was an atheist. I forgot all about religion for the following 20 years. It is only lately that I have been tormented by the faithful and the fanaticism that you see everywhere. How people say faith is a wonderful thing, the more you doubt, the more you have to hang on to your faith. I never needed all of Dawkin´s arguments but since reading his and Christopher Hitchen´s books, I have become somewhat of a fanatic antitheist myself. I revile religion and the priests and rabbis and theologians (who should know better) who continue to peddle this shit on young and old. Preying on the former´s innocence and the latter´s fear of the great nothingness. Where can I sign up? I wanna be part of the fight against theocracy. Just because it´s tradition, doesn´t make it alright. I´m not even going to lie to my kids about Santa. Hundreds of years after the enlightenment and here we are, wasting time and energy on this. I am consumed by a simmering hatred, I want to hit back[/b][/size][/font]