RE: Relapses of a recovering god-aholic
April 1, 2012 at 8:59 pm
(This post was last modified: April 1, 2012 at 9:08 pm by Blanca.)
(April 1, 2012 at 1:51 am)Creed of Heresy Wrote: Think what you want. Doesn't make it true. You can submit yourself to an examination by an individual who has spent years studying the topic of human emotional and mental workings [and who have degrees from reputable colleges in courses specializing in these fields] to figure out if your "religious experiences" were real or made up. OR you can continue to hold your delusions as being feasible. If you think that "appeals to ego" and isn't "truth-seeking," then you might as well submit that the big bang theory and the theory of evolution are pandering to the egos of the individuals who study the topics, too, and if that's the case, good luck ever coming to any valid logical conclusions; you're gonna need it.
my, my you are aggressive - and defensive.
(April 1, 2012 at 12:39 pm)Voltair Wrote: Don't beat yourself up/freak out about the relapse experiences. Sometimes when I lay down I still catch myself beginning that nightly prayer and then I go "Wait... ahhhhh shit". Its not the same as your experiences but you got to give yourself a break. When something is psychologically conditioned into you especially for a period of over 10 years etc its going to take awhile and sometimes a really focused effort to get rid of the habit.
You may want to consider seeking some professional help if the experiences are very severe/uncomfortable. I think that you can overcome them eventually but some of us are just going to carry some weird baggage that pops up every now and again. Just think of it as an old wound that throbs every now and again in the cold.
The experience was not severe or uncomfortable at all; in fact it changed my life 180 degrees for the better. It was quite profound and amazing. It turned me away from my religion and liberated me from my psychotic mother. I have spoken to many psychologists about it but they were all religious - maybe I should find an atheist psychologist. I was wondering if I could figure out what it was so I could reproduce it.
I do get confused sometimes and want to think it was 'god'. that is the indoctrination in me and it pulls at me. I want to forget that part of my life but I dont want to let go of this particular experience completely because it helped me so much and i think I could help a lot of other people if I only knew how to reproduce it. I guess what I'm wondering if anyone was able to keep some experiences they had while religious, but drop the religious part from the experience?
