RE: Stuck
April 17, 2012 at 12:58 am
(This post was last modified: April 17, 2012 at 1:05 am by FallentoReason.)
(April 17, 2012 at 12:29 am)orogenicman Wrote: You seem to be stuck between two worlds, and if I were you, I'd make the change one way or the other before if completely fucks you up. That's not to say that making the change will be easy or won't fuck you up as well. Ultimately, it's your decision. But ask yourself this, are you more comfortable living a lie or would it be better to be honest with yourself and your family and friends?
Yeah I've been meaning to just let it all out because I'm not comfortable at the moment. I just can't really predict what the consequences of that will be and this is what's stopping me from letting it all out.
(April 17, 2012 at 12:54 am)Minimalist Wrote: Perhaps you need to ask yourself how valuable to you are people who would throw you under a bus because you no longer profess belief in their fairy tales?
If their invisible friend is more important to them than you are maybe you are better off without them?
It's not that they will start hating me after that. I know that they're better than that. The problem is that as it is, for obvious reasons my theist friends feel it is morally right to preach about the Word and also get together and discuss it. So as it is, I'm already getting pummeled by their beliefs 2 to 3 times a week. If I start saying that I don't believe anymore then I will get 24/7 pummeling of the Word and countless reasons why it is the truth and so on.
What I fear the most about this happening is that I will most likely damage their faith more than what they will influence me. I already saw this happen when I decided to test a theist friend by letting out a miniscule amount of what I think is truth. We were discussing something to do with the Gospels and I half intentionally blurted out that church tradition gave the nameless authors labels. He looked at me funny and said 'read the top of every page. it tells us who wrote it!'. Immediately I had to put the brakes because already I could tell that conversation wasn't going to end well. They're all so fragile and any conversation about what I think will most likely destroy them.
"It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it" ~ Aristotle
